Here I am dating the most amazing person I’ve ever met in my life and it all seems like a dream. This is a lady I have been chasing for years, months, weeks and days trying to impress and ask to be my girlfriend and all this time she turned me down as she wasn’t ready to accept me for reasons best known to her as she kept saying she wasn’t ready maybe in future but no guarantees. On the other hand I am thankful to her because she didn’t accept me then as I wasn’t really focused on relationships and it’s for sure I didn’t know what I wanted😂. The twists and turns of life, the struggles and the rejections while looking for love made me understand what to offer and what to expect in a relationship.
She told me I am her first love, in a way I was humbled and a part of me was scared because In my mind I thought that I might just be an experiment of what it feels like to be in a relationship. Sometimes people enter into relationships for wrong reasons and when they finally realise, the relationship comes to an end.
I ask myself questions but one that still disturbs me till date is what if I was a COINCIDENCE🤷🏾♂️. Just when she feels ready to be in a relationship here I come trying again😂… I bet in her mind she was like “this dude looks like he’s serious let me give him a shot and if things don’t work out I’ll just bounce 😂“. What if I was a mistake she made? What if someone new comes to her life and gives her a different experience, will she be attracted and feel the vibe ? Is she eager to explore and experience more ? Will she stay or not ?
As for now things seem to be okay and super fine. I can say I am in love and she tells me the same everyday so we are in love with each other though I am insecure, I am afraid, I am worried and at times stressed out because I don’t know what to expect next. All in all to love is to respect, trust and it’s also a commitment to one another, living by the promises you make to each other every single day that passes by that tomorrow, we shall be together through it all and still be able to make each other happy. Sometimes you just let go of your fears and let them fade with time.